well last night i went to bed thinking of you. why? who know's but all i know is that it was wrong because i already made it clear to myself that i don't want you in my life as nothing but why is it so difficult to get you out of my head?it's like if you wrote on my heart with permanent marker.
ugh and it's so annoying because i want you gone for good.
when i saw geovannie at the funeral the first person that came to my mind was you and i felt so guilty for doing what i do etc and i put myself in his shoes and i know i would go insane if i found out you were REALLY gone but i can't help it.
i know i am not in love with you anymore but i once was and that can't go away.sometimes i wish i could tell you this but i cant even think of talking to you...but maybe you will read this hopefully i am not too sure.but if you do well atleast you know how i am feeling.
